My mom and I were talking about this book she is reading ( "People of The Lie" by M. Scott Peck). Its about his study on human evil. She was telling me how the motivation of evil people (aka. Hilter, Saddam) is all self-focused. if you think about it, all sin is self-focused. all of it. and those seven deadly sins, the main motivation is pride. Mom told me that Peck describes Satan as being the ultimate narcissist, totally self absorbed, cares nothing about anyone but himself. So of course sin in us would be the same way. its so weird to think that my flesh is constantly self-focused. and everything that it wants to do its motivation is pride. no wonder its hard for Christans to give up their reputations to God....because our reputation is not what we should be focused on, we are not showing ourselves, we are showing God's reputation, and we are supposed to be protecting His reputation. It goes against the very grain of our flesh.
Its so strange how opposite Satan is from God. In the book, Peck talked about how Jesus is the Christ, telling people to love each other, God the Father is creative, the Holy Spirit comforts and intercedes for us. Satan is the AntiChrist, loves only himself, and is purely destructive, opposing human life and growth. its scary how evil he is. i know personally i forget how evil he truly is....and how sick his plans are for people. war to me is a picture of it. i was sitting in my room last night and my mom told me a story that had happened recently in Iraq (It was after the suicide bombing had killed those soldiers). The soldiers were told to shoot any person who didn't stop when asked to stop going through a check point. a family in a van (about 11 of them) had gotten through one checkpoint and were trying to flee the city that was being bombed. so they went through one check point and thought they didn't have to stop anymore. the soldiers tried to get them to stop but they didn't understand what was going on or the new rules, and they were gunned down. ten people died in that van. mom said that when the news interviewed the woman that survived (who was pregnant) she said that she watched her children (about 3-5 years old) get their heads get blown off their bodies...and that she didn't want to have this baby, because she feels nothing emotionally. i just started crying about it...war is sooo evil. this poor woman now has no family and has to live the rest of her life with the picture of how they died. the soldiers who tried to stop them have to live knowing that if they had waited maybe one more second, or tried to stop them one more time, they could have prevented killing a family that was just trying to get away from the bombing...and who weren't suicide bombers. war is too backwards...it is sick. people have to make choices that they shouldn't ever have to make.
soldiers are going to come back with images in their heads that no one will be able to relate to....they will have culture shock in a way...their old friends won't understand that part of their life. i can't imagine how it would be to come home and after just killing people have hundreds of people come up to you saying you are a hero...
But i have to remember that God is in it somehow....even though humans are sick beings...God doesn't leave us. He is here, heartbroken, but here...and He will triumph over evil.