Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed.
You watched my team win, and watched my team loose
Watched when my bicycle went down again.
When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call You by name
And I said Elbow Healer, Superhero, come if you can.
You said, I Am.
Only sixteen, life is so mean
What kind of curfew is at 10 pm?
You saw my mistakes and watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I'd never love again
When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call You by name
And I said Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper, be my best friend
You said, I Am.
You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
I said 'forever' to what lies ahead
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
Too much it might seem when it is 2 am.
When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call You by name
Oh, Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker, hold on to my hand.
You say, I Am.
The winds of change and circumstance
Blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that's familiar.
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer.
When life had begun, I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance around the throne.
Who can say when, but they'll dance again
When I am free and finalaly headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer
Lord and King, Beginning and the End
I Am. I Am.
"I AM" by: Nichole Nordeman
This is one of my favorite songs right now, it grasps for me how personal our God truly is...and that is a comfort to me. If you click her name, it will send you to her page of song clips, I highly recommend listening to this one.
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
well i have to say that i think i did the craziest thing i've ever done in college tonight....ok well maybe crazy is a strong word....its more like the silliest thing i've ever done in college.
here i was at 9:00 sitting in the upstairs t.v. room of my sorority house watching Everwood (which is a GREAT show) and then once that was over, getting sucked deeper into the never-ending cycle of watching useless shows...and i see these two women making s'mores. i think to myself "wow, i haven't had one of those in a while...actually that sounds kind of good right now...hmm i'll have to eat one sometime soon." well the scene on t.v. quickly left and so did the thought of eating s'mores...or so i thought. dun dun dun. little did i know that my mind was already formulating the quickest way for me to eat one of those.
next thing i know, i am having the biggest craving for s'mores in my life! by this time it's like 11:30. a crazy time of night for me to be thinking about going to the store to get the essential ingredients of a s'more! well folks, i definitely WAS thinking that crazy. First i decided that i would go to the mini-store on campus, and then realized they probably wouldn't have graham crackers...and their prices would be outragous. then i asked one of my sisters...and they suggested going to the mini-mart that was just around the corner from our sorority house. so i thought, "hey what a great idea!" well i start walking over there and get into the store...guess what they had. Marshmallows. that was it. 1 out of 3 is pretty bad...and they weren't even Kraft Jet-Puffed marshmallows, they were some unknown brand that looked a billion years old. Needless to say, I quickly left the store determined to go somewhere else and get my craving fixed.
On to plan B...Publix. well this plan did not last very long considering I quickly learned that Publix closes at 11:00...like any decent grocery store would. how were these people to know that a poor girl would crave s'mores at 12:00 at night? Plan C...Walmart. yes, i drove to walmart. now in tallahassee...the closest walmart is years away from campus...i definitely wrote about the distances stores are to campus in an earlier blog...so i won't go into that....but anyways...here i was alone in my car driving a very long distance to walmart just because i wanted s'mores.
well i got there ok. and found my ingredients, and also found out that a lot of people do their weekly, and some monthly grocery shopping at 12:15. anyways...i was standing in line waiting for the check-out lady realizing how ridiculous i was being about my craving when i hear laughter coming from behind me. keep in mind, this was very faint laughter and male laughter. but coming from only one guy. so i quickly turn and i see this guy looking at me with a very amused look...and laughing. more like chuckling. i found him quite attractive...a little on the short side, but hey whatever! i'm at walmart at 12:15 come on! anyways....i start defending myself about my three items on the belt, saying "i had a craving, i know its weird...i tried going to the store on campus....etc." you get the picture. well i look down and happen to noticed his items....broccoli, bananas, orange juice, and mixed fruit juice.
i begin to laugh, and point out that my stuff is completely unhealthy and i don't normally eat this way. he then told me that his major was Science and Nutrition, and had to keep up with his diet. i asked him if he ever had unhealthy cravings and he gave me this look like "what does that mean?" i quickly covered my semi-serious question with a joke saying he probably craved oranges...which he agreed to. so that joke died right there. i even joked around about my s'mores being my dinner...which i don't think he understood to be a joke cause he said "yeah, i remember my first year in college and i didn't eat that well..." i then told him it was a joke. clearly he didn't understand my humor. and he quickly asked me what year i was in school. then asked me why i was living on campus. he found out i was in a sorority, and then i learned that he was in Kappa Sig. so we had a Greek connection.
well by this time i was already checked out ready to go and we were having small talk as we left the store. he ended up driving right next to me on the road a little ways and i kept trying to see if he wanted to tell me something...but he never looked over. so whatever. i just thought this whole evening was hilarious. the one person i talk to in walmart happens to be a nutrition major and Greek.
to finish my story...i came home safely, and made myself two half s'mores. they were cooked to perfection. chocolate dripping from them as i bit into the s'more. mmmm. so good! i have to use part of a Frank Sinatra song to describe what my first reaction was to satisfying my craving: "Heaven. I'm in heaven. and my heart beats so that i can hardly speak. And I seem to find the happiness I seek."
If you have never seen the Original S'mores Collection, definitely take a look! They are the cutest things in the world!! I love them!
here i was at 9:00 sitting in the upstairs t.v. room of my sorority house watching Everwood (which is a GREAT show) and then once that was over, getting sucked deeper into the never-ending cycle of watching useless shows...and i see these two women making s'mores. i think to myself "wow, i haven't had one of those in a while...actually that sounds kind of good right now...hmm i'll have to eat one sometime soon." well the scene on t.v. quickly left and so did the thought of eating s'mores...or so i thought. dun dun dun. little did i know that my mind was already formulating the quickest way for me to eat one of those.
next thing i know, i am having the biggest craving for s'mores in my life! by this time it's like 11:30. a crazy time of night for me to be thinking about going to the store to get the essential ingredients of a s'more! well folks, i definitely WAS thinking that crazy. First i decided that i would go to the mini-store on campus, and then realized they probably wouldn't have graham crackers...and their prices would be outragous. then i asked one of my sisters...and they suggested going to the mini-mart that was just around the corner from our sorority house. so i thought, "hey what a great idea!" well i start walking over there and get into the store...guess what they had. Marshmallows. that was it. 1 out of 3 is pretty bad...and they weren't even Kraft Jet-Puffed marshmallows, they were some unknown brand that looked a billion years old. Needless to say, I quickly left the store determined to go somewhere else and get my craving fixed.
On to plan B...Publix. well this plan did not last very long considering I quickly learned that Publix closes at 11:00...like any decent grocery store would. how were these people to know that a poor girl would crave s'mores at 12:00 at night? Plan C...Walmart. yes, i drove to walmart. now in tallahassee...the closest walmart is years away from campus...i definitely wrote about the distances stores are to campus in an earlier blog...so i won't go into that....but anyways...here i was alone in my car driving a very long distance to walmart just because i wanted s'mores.
well i got there ok. and found my ingredients, and also found out that a lot of people do their weekly, and some monthly grocery shopping at 12:15. anyways...i was standing in line waiting for the check-out lady realizing how ridiculous i was being about my craving when i hear laughter coming from behind me. keep in mind, this was very faint laughter and male laughter. but coming from only one guy. so i quickly turn and i see this guy looking at me with a very amused look...and laughing. more like chuckling. i found him quite attractive...a little on the short side, but hey whatever! i'm at walmart at 12:15 come on! anyways....i start defending myself about my three items on the belt, saying "i had a craving, i know its weird...i tried going to the store on campus....etc." you get the picture. well i look down and happen to noticed his items....broccoli, bananas, orange juice, and mixed fruit juice.
i begin to laugh, and point out that my stuff is completely unhealthy and i don't normally eat this way. he then told me that his major was Science and Nutrition, and had to keep up with his diet. i asked him if he ever had unhealthy cravings and he gave me this look like "what does that mean?" i quickly covered my semi-serious question with a joke saying he probably craved oranges...which he agreed to. so that joke died right there. i even joked around about my s'mores being my dinner...which i don't think he understood to be a joke cause he said "yeah, i remember my first year in college and i didn't eat that well..." i then told him it was a joke. clearly he didn't understand my humor. and he quickly asked me what year i was in school. then asked me why i was living on campus. he found out i was in a sorority, and then i learned that he was in Kappa Sig. so we had a Greek connection.
well by this time i was already checked out ready to go and we were having small talk as we left the store. he ended up driving right next to me on the road a little ways and i kept trying to see if he wanted to tell me something...but he never looked over. so whatever. i just thought this whole evening was hilarious. the one person i talk to in walmart happens to be a nutrition major and Greek.
to finish my story...i came home safely, and made myself two half s'mores. they were cooked to perfection. chocolate dripping from them as i bit into the s'more. mmmm. so good! i have to use part of a Frank Sinatra song to describe what my first reaction was to satisfying my craving: "Heaven. I'm in heaven. and my heart beats so that i can hardly speak. And I seem to find the happiness I seek."
If you have never seen the Original S'mores Collection, definitely take a look! They are the cutest things in the world!! I love them!