There are so many needing help. God, bring their hearts to Yourself and show them the One person who can fulfill their deepest need, who can make sense of this mixed up world we live in.

Broken vessel willing to be used

It's amazing to how quickly satan tries to discourage me here at school. It 's only been three days and the feelings have hit. Tired, overwhelmed, inadequate. The thing is, it's true. I am unable to do this on my own. I cannot survive this semester without Your strength, God. I will be depending on You fully this semester, in so many areas of my life--school, my daily witness in phi mu, sharing my faith with the women You have placed on my heart: Elizabeth, Nicole, Taylor, Zandy, and Jamie--Father, I still feel so young in my faith, so much to learn and experience and understand about Your character. Will we grow intimate this semester? Will I hear Your heartbeat; hear Your still, small voice; see You in this house? I hope that I will not live for the future, but use everyday as an opportunity to glorify You. To serve You, pushing aside my desires, and pointless 'needs'.

Lord, be my first Love, don't let my heart be led astray to other things that take my focus off You...idols. Break me, God...break my will. Break my heart for the people around me. Let me know deeply how much You love them and how much they are dying. I want to weep for their souls, cry in joy and awe over what You have done for me, and then have the boldness to go and share with them what You have done for them.

driving four hours to tally

I'm sitting here waiting for the asprin to start working as I sip my 7-Up. I'm not feeling too well...which could be partly due to a number of things like: the fact that I've been sick lately, I stayed up 'till the wee hours of the morning today talking with my two new favorite guys, I have to drive four hours to Tallahassee to start school tomorrow, I haven't eaten lunch yet, Satan is discouraging me about my ministry in Phi Mu--which is ridiculous that he can hit so quickly after God has so clearly reconfirmed me being there! Ugh! It's frustrating that's for sure! God beat him down please and give me the strength to endure...

Well now I've eaten lunch...the asprin seems to be working...so I'll write more after I've arrived in Tally...

Autumn and Winter create boyfriend weather

Why does it feel like everywhere I look there is a new 'couple' springing up? Does the cold weather turn on people's relationship-radar so that they must find a boy/girlfriend by the end of the year? It just seems like there are many people 'in-love' right now....but that also could be heightened by the fact that love is so desperately looked for everywhere and needed by everyone, or it could just be that love is being talked/sung about on the radio in almost every song!

"Some turkey and some mistletoe, can help to make the season bright..."
"I have one wish on this Christmas Eve, I wish I were with you..."
"When we've finally kissed goodnight, how I'll hate going out in the storm, but if you really hold me tight, all the way home I'll be warm!"
"It's that time of year, when the world falls in love, every song you hear, seems to say..."

Thank goodness there are actual Christ-centered Christmas songs that can keep me in check! It's nice to think about Jesus' love for me instead of my lack of boyfriend-ness. Yes, it does creep up on me at times, especially if I'm in the car, after a long day at work, and I've got lovey-dovey music blaring in my ear on my way home!! ;) Except for 'Here comes Santa Claus', 'Rudolph the Red-nosed reindeer', 'Grandma got runover by a reindeer', 'Dominick the Christmas donkey', and any variations of those, I love Christmas music! Especially the message that is told through them! This is the only time you will hear so many radio stations praising Jesus Christ! :) It's wonderful!

"Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices! O Night devine, O Night when Christ was born!"
"Joy the world, the Lord is come, Let earth receive her King!"
"Noel, Noel, Noel, Noel born is the King of Israel!"
"Rejoice, Rejoice, Emmanuel, shall come to thee O Israel!"
"God inparts to human hearts, the blessings of His hand, O here they hear His calling, but in this world of sin, the weaks souls will receive Him still, the near Christ enters in"