Today would have to be summed up as a great day. :) I realized a lot of things....learned a lot too! The day started out with a revelation about myself...I realized that I am a modern-day Israelite. This morning I was reading Nehemiah 9: 9-31. It was a song of praise to God by the Israelites....and as I read it I realized how my life paralleled their journey through the wilderness. God showed them wonders like they've never seen before...He saved them from an oppressive king. But once they got to the wilderness they complained and complained...."we have no food", so God sent them manna. then it was "we have no water." God provided water through a rock. then it became "we are tired of manna we want something else...." so He provided quail. then they followed Him and loved Him for awhile...until they were dis-satisfied and turned to idols and earthy men. So God let them and saw them go through the consequences for their choices....death, disease, pain. And the Israelites cried out to God for help....amazingly enough He chose to hear them and come and rescue them from themselves basically. It amazes me so much how many times God does that over and over and over again in the Old Testiment.
Well that picture is the same as my life....God shows up in my life in a huge way, I am in love with Him, I feel His presence. I delight in being a child of His. then as the feelings fade and i walk along through life...the complaining starts...."Ugh. i don't like how You are making me do this...or go through this." just like a spoiled brat. So God shows me a glimpse of His love for me. then it becomes "why can't I have that over there...like she/he has...." or "I'm tired of being here...i don't want to try anymore. i can't see down the road of my life so it must be bad." then God shows me part of His plan for my life...and I rejoice. then my eyes begin to look towards myself and my own world...instead of looking up to see God and see eternal perspective. I begin to turn to idols in my life....friends, school, apathy, family, activity, tv. telling God that I am fully capable of doing things on my own and I'm in control and its all going to be ok. like the prodical son i run away...and God watches me with sadness but lets me go. Then the consequences set in and in my distress i call out to Him and come crawling back bruised and broken. In His grace He helps me up and walks with me the rest of the way home. Sadly I wish i could stay leaning on Him letting Him lead the way...but no, my flesh doesn't like that idea and the cycle starts again. Thank you Lord for being gracious and forgiving.
anyways....this is what i learned about myself today. so i prayed that God would show me Himself all day...and it was awesome! I had the best mood, the day was perfect weather wise! I got an A on my biology test when i took it a second time. :) :) :) and I felt sooooooo good about my middle-eastern history test i took today. God is good.
oooh! i'm going to be really random now. there were a few interesting things that happened to me today:
1. I ate a chocolate chocolate-chip cookie ice-cream sandwich. oh the yummy-ness of that treat! ;) although the only problem that i found with it was that once you finished it, you were full and felt full for an incredibly long period of time...not a very fun thing for someone like me who loves to eat constantly. but it was an experience worth trying! :)
2. I went tanning on Landis Green. this my friends was the first real college experience i have had yet! I was like those college girls in the movies who lay out on big grassy areas tanning! It was so great! Katie and I were laying there skipping class (teehee) and as jonathan lipps put it "letting the sun kiss us."
3. I had a frisbee thrown over my head while I was tanning. Katie and I were just laying there all nice soaking in the rays...when a bunch of Kappa Sig guys decided it was the pefect spot to throw a frisbee! so yeah there were a couple times where it almost hit our heads. scary stuff if you ask me! ;)
4. I thought I had lost my purple sunglasses...i had left them in the testing center when i took my bio test. poor things had to stay in there all alone! tsk tsk. i seem to be loosing a lot of things lately...hmmm....
well thats all i can think of to say...i have really enjoyed this day. now time to do stupid math practice quizes. oh and how the fun will begin.
Wednesday, April 02, 2003
OH MY GOSH! THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY! Katie and I were talking to eachother online and I needed to use a smiley face...so I increased the size of it so that it was gigantic! anyways...then we both saw our friend come on line (this friend's name will remain nameless, thus protected from the laughter that will follow if people knew this friend's identity) and decided that it was time to throw on our coats of weirdness and attack our friend....and then insued the Great Smiley Face Invasion.
yes i know....very terrifying. But alas...this poor friend was not able to surpass our weirdness....nor even come close to equaling our weirdness...no this friend merely gave us a boring response. But we were not daunted...no....but continued on, ever challenging the weirdness level and our friend's level of gullibility. katie and i were both trying to think of a creative way for me to end my conversation with our friend because i admit...i am lacking in the creativity at times...and katie came up with a clever little diddy....she said, to our friend for me: "a bird just flew through Carrie's window and shattered the glass. It's lying on her floor. She has to go clean up the mess now." meanwhile i had already said my boring goodbye when all of a sudden my friend quickly IMed me saying: "A bird just flew through your window?!?" (at this point in the conversation i would like to point out that katie and i quickly stopped talking over IM and i called her room right away in a fit of laughter over what had just occurred)
SIDE NOTE: Both Katie and I would like to say that we never intentionally meant for our friend to believe what we said....it was supposed to be one of those--ha ha ha...you guys are weird--kind of things.
anyways back to the story so i decide to further this imaginary incident even further to see if our friend would continue to believe our story...and said:"yeah it did. Its really gross." (there ya go...a perfect example of my lack of creativity) well our friend believed me. but i soon realized that it was 11:59pm....STILL APRIL FOOLS DAY!! we had a way out of this! so i quickly told Katie over the phone and IMed our friend and told our friend that it was an April Fools joke. of course our friend was shocked and then quickly gave us the response we had wanted and laughed at us and our strange behavior....needless to say katie and i have build rock hard abs over this whole incident from the muchos amounts of laughter. :) I have to say...for the record, this has been the best April Fools Joke in my entire existence! hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
yes i know....very terrifying. But alas...this poor friend was not able to surpass our weirdness....nor even come close to equaling our weirdness...no this friend merely gave us a boring response. But we were not daunted...no....but continued on, ever challenging the weirdness level and our friend's level of gullibility. katie and i were both trying to think of a creative way for me to end my conversation with our friend because i admit...i am lacking in the creativity at times...and katie came up with a clever little diddy....she said, to our friend for me: "a bird just flew through Carrie's window and shattered the glass. It's lying on her floor. She has to go clean up the mess now." meanwhile i had already said my boring goodbye when all of a sudden my friend quickly IMed me saying: "A bird just flew through your window?!?" (at this point in the conversation i would like to point out that katie and i quickly stopped talking over IM and i called her room right away in a fit of laughter over what had just occurred)
SIDE NOTE: Both Katie and I would like to say that we never intentionally meant for our friend to believe what we said....it was supposed to be one of those--ha ha ha...you guys are weird--kind of things.
anyways back to the story so i decide to further this imaginary incident even further to see if our friend would continue to believe our story...and said:"yeah it did. Its really gross." (there ya go...a perfect example of my lack of creativity) well our friend believed me. but i soon realized that it was 11:59pm....STILL APRIL FOOLS DAY!! we had a way out of this! so i quickly told Katie over the phone and IMed our friend and told our friend that it was an April Fools joke. of course our friend was shocked and then quickly gave us the response we had wanted and laughed at us and our strange behavior....needless to say katie and i have build rock hard abs over this whole incident from the muchos amounts of laughter. :) I have to say...for the record, this has been the best April Fools Joke in my entire existence! hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
Tuesday, April 01, 2003
I am craving one of the little joys of life....chocolate-chip cookie ice-cream sandwiches. yummy. They are the perfect balance of chocolate and vanilla ice-cream! I think when i get older i'll have to have lots of these in my freezer....they are becoming a must in Carrie's life. Isn't it funny how certain foods can make all your cares disappear? Here I am stressed about my history and biology test tomorrow and all I can really think about is that ice-cream sandwich! My day will not be complete without one! But one of my horrifying thoughts is that they won't be at the little store on campus....this has happened to me before....it was a very sad day indeed....let us hope that for my sake I will find them safe and sound in their cold beds....and at least one of them waiting for me to release it from its packaging and show the outside world to it! oh the joy that will abound in my soul! ok...so i get carried away. yes i know its just icecream...well gotta go get one now...you didn't think i would just write about one and not get one did you?? ;)